I don't hold grudges lightly. Look at Iavas. If you had asked me a year ago if I would ever be on friendly terms with him, I would have said, no, never. He and I were so directly opposed on everything we discussed, and couldn't put ourselves in each others shoes to really even understand and communicate.
If I had left TORC then, I probably would have said the same about Iavas that I say now about Jonathan. I just wouldn't ever seek to talk to him. Fortunately, that's not the case and we came to a mutual understanding... and basically agreed never to talk about the movies again
, although that could change at any moment...
Jonathan, on the other hand, has shown himself to be incapable of the communication necessary to accomplish anything with regards to a relationship with me. Indeed he seems to have made it clear that he wants no such relationship.
That, like the school that kept me out, is his problem. In the end I will have lost nothing, and indeed B77 is entirely preferable to TORC, just as the school I ended up at was entirely preferable to the other one. They are the ones who have lost because they excluded me.
I guess grudge might be the wrong word. Perhaps a mutual agreement of enmity. Not malicious (at least on my part), just somewhat disdainful.