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Now that I've had a slightly normal day (that still included the odd coughing fit) I just wanted to appologize to everyone I have or have not talked to in the last couple of weeks. Things were sort of wonky during the holiday season because I wanted to write so many cards, and reply to so many threads, but I became late with the first and never got around to the second. I hate missing out on time, but I can't seem to accomplish much with the time I get. It was really lovely to catch a nasty cold on Christmas Eve and then spend the whole week feeling like shit, not being able to do anything. In that time, I received many cards from you guys that I haven't yet been able to thank you for. Or I was completely useless in an IM conversation.

Yeah, I'm one of those people who harps on the time she's lost by losing more of it when she could be out there making up for it or at least moving on. I just really hate that I was set back at such an inconvenient time. I mean, I only get to see my dad on weekends and he was home for ten whole days! But we still didn't get to hang out much cuz I was sick or sleeping. That pisses me off like you wouldn't believe. Or I could have called some of you or written more PMs... but I just wasn't feeling up for it.

Even worse, I start complaining about all of this, which makes me angry with myself for dumping it on y'all when I'm sure I could find more interesting topics to talk about. I know nobody wants to hear someone bitch like this... I just really didn't know what else to do cuz its not like you can yell at your cold. Its all very frustrating. So I'm really sorry you guys had to hear me go on about it, and moreso that I wasn't around to talk about better things.

It's just a weird phase I'm going through where I don't know what I want, or how to avoid what I don't want. Starting to think that winter depression is setting in. No idea how to fix it (I'm feeling extremely unmotivated) but I hope I find a way soon, mostly because I miss writing posts I'm at all proud of. If you can't be happy with yourself, how can you expect it from others?

So I'm really sorry for how I've been in the last while. I don't know what's changed, but I need a change, and will try to work on finding one.

Happy new year, all.




*E*

Whatever.



We still love you!

I can't be mad at you, you sent me a card.

Well that still doesn't make you any less the coolest persona on B77.

Cheers *E*. (The Keiths are on me .)

*E*

I rec'd your card, New Years Eve, what a wonderful thoughtful gesture.



and stop apologising, get out there and post..

*E* I just wanted to say thank you for being so friendly and welcoming to me in the last few weeks. I remember you from TORC and have enjoyed your posts there and here. Sorry to hear about the Christmas illness.

Here's to a better week.

*E*, I hope you feel better and have a better week.

I got your card while I was at my sickest and it made my day. Thank you! It was funny and creative and a real hoot, much like its sender.

*E*


You know I love you. And you don't complain too much.

Got no time to read this but *E* always deserves a hug.

*E*

Your card was wonderful and cheered me up a lot. So don't beat yourself up at all, because it seems you have brought joy to many many people here.

I don't see what you've got to apologise for. Your card cheered me no end, and I ran around the house showing it off to people and I was like "Look, she had something NICE to say about me!" and it's nice to see you online at all, ever! So unless there's some seriously big shit going down that I've missed, HUG!!!! Stop beating yourself up, woman!

*~Pips~*

*E*!!!

I got my card!! Thanks so much! It was very sweet!

Hope you are feelin' even better now... and especially hope you are out of that "80 year old" slump you were in the other night!

sorry to hear *E* that you had such a horrible time over X-mas. I hope all is better now and that you're feeling ok.



.. and especially another for totally surprising me when I came back from holiday. Thank you so much for your wonderful card. It really made me smile ... and walk down memory lane

A wonderful and happy NEW YEAR to you *E*